anarchymydear:

I’m dying laughing!

At the moment I’m looking for a job so I can move out of my family home. I feel I am ready to leave, and without university I’ll just have to do it the hard way! I have a part time job but it doesn’t bring in as much money as I’d need to live independently so the search begins for a full time job.

After a quick and somewhat frankly confusing search through jobs on the Internet I decided my best bet was to head to the job centre for some advice.

I dressed nicely and walked in the door looking confident and someone anyone would want to employ so they would know I was serious about getting a job. When I entered I was confronted with a lot of not very well dressed people who looked like they were not serious about getting a job. After a small wait someone came up and asked if they could help me. The conversation went something like this:

Lady: “How can I help you?”

Me: “Well, I’m looking for a full time job to replace my part time job so I can move out and needed some guidance”

Lady: “We don’t really deal with that here…”

Me: “You don’t deal with jobs at the job centre?”

Lady: “Not really, we mostly deal with benefits.”

Me: “Right, so you can’t offer me any advice at all?”

Lady: “Have you tried the Internet?”

Me: *dies*

I then left, laughing to myself about how unemployment is on the rise and the job centre is giving away benefits. If I had gone in asking for some kind of benefit I think the lady would have been far more enthusiastic about helping me.

For now, my search continues!

Yesterday I deleted my facebook account. Being 20 years old this makes me somewhat of a hero to my age group! I had a sudden realisation that my life consisted of events, photos and words that I saw on facebook. Conversations too often began “The funniest thing happened to me last night!” answered by “Yeah, I know, I saw on facebook”. Conversation became in some ways optional, not necessary.

I made the decision that things I wanted to know about my friends, I could ask. I didn’t need to read the details of their lives on facebook, I needed to make the effort to call or text them and find it all out. Straight from the horses mouth as the expression goes! With many of my friends abandoning our home town for university contact between us had already become harder than usual. Facebook obviously didn’t make it harder as it gives me endless ways to contact any one person, but it made me lazy. I didn’t need to contact them to know they had a stressful day handing in a project, had an hilarious night out or ate a whole tub of ice cream. I was simply handed this information.

Okay so perhaps this all sounds a little melodramatic… Of course I could call my friends whenever I wanted and it’s not like i couldn’t make conversation but personally I felt I needed a change from this routine.

Many people are very shocked about me deleting facebook, a few asking how I will live without it. That is one of the reasons I want to get rid of it. Why should my life revolve around it? The only thing I will miss is looking back on past status’ which remind me of various amazing things that I’ve done, but those status’ are just memories for me and no one else. Why should everyone else read them? My slightly early news years resolution is to start a diary and write in there all the things that I want to remember. That’s easier to look back on and far more personal than facebook.

My other way to document these events is to blog. I have never blogged before but often thought about it. Tried vlogging once which was a complete disaster! Not that I expect anyone to read this, but if you are you might be able to tell that I ramble so much and that’s a bitch to edit! Plus, I don’t come across as confident on a camera as I do just typing words and if I can give vlogging a go, I can certainly give blogging a go!

So, end of day one without facebook and so far I couldn’t be more positive. I suspect somewhat like a crack addict, I’ll be wanting my fix sooner or later but for now I’m content in the knowledge that I am only discoverable to the people I want to find me :)